Tonight I am so grateful for missing Mike. I feel so lucky to have him in my life to miss. I searched, and searched for so long for him; lost hope of finding him a hundred times, at least. Now, that almost seems silly sometimes. It was impossible that we would stay lost to each other in ths life for long. Like the poem by Rumi on our wedding invitation says...
The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere,
they're in each other all along.
– Rumi
Only 6 days until he gets back from Germany...and only 27 until we are married in the mountains. I could write about my gratitude for this man, and this time in my life, for volumes every day.
If you haven't found your anam cara, your "soul friend", yet, don't suffer...keep your eyes and your heart open wide. He or she has been in you all along...
Find a notebook, or a softly covered journal, a stack of paper set aside for recycling; anything you can write on will do. Also, you'll need a pen. Each day set down one thing, in ink, that you are grateful for. Large or small, it can be huge and expanding for miles, or just the tinyest fragment if that is all you can find right now.
Do this each day, and when you've done it for seven days, go back and read each one and notice the way that you feel. Write down a little about how you are feeling.
Gratitude is a easy sometimes, and in other moments a challenge. Culitvating awareness makes gratitude expand and flow, and creating a Daily Gratitude Journal is a beautiful and deeply satisfying way to open the flood gates.
May your heart be filled with gratitude and light.
